
This is Shirley and yesterday, we had to put her to sleep.
We had a hard time knowing what to do. She's been blind and mostly deaf for about 6 months, but got around just fine as long as we didn't move the furniture. She was quite happy curled up on the heater vent or sitting on someone's lap getting her ears scratched. We mashed up soft cat food and added warm water so that she could eat easier. She had a happy old age.
But then, a couple of days ago, she got sick and we knew she wasn't going to get better. We didn't want her to suffer but, wow - that decision of putting them to sleep is hard, hard, hard. We got her as a kitten in 1994 and we've had her for so long that it's hard to remember a time in our family when we didn't have her there. Intellectually, I knew exactly what we needed to do. My heart, however, took a little longer to decide. I'm still not sure it's completely on board with the decision.
We took her to a dear friend that we've known for over 20 years - Dr. Reed Hanson in Rexburg. We didn't want her to have this experience in the hands of a stranger. He was so gentle and tender with her. And he understood my puffy eyes and uncontrollable emotion. Shirley and I both were in good hands.
He examined her, said he might be able to give her I.V. fluids to help her out a little but I had made the decision. We couldn't postpone the inevitable, much as I wanted to. No....we had the ability to release this little spirit from a body that was nothing anymore for her than pain and suffering. And, after all, isn't relieving the burden what friends do for each other?
I was very nervous. I didn't know what to expect, but I knew I had to stay with her no matter what. As it turns out, I didn't need to worry. He helped her out so quickly and tenderly that it was almost a spiritual experience just watching it happen. He even gave her a little pink bandage for her arm where he had shaved off her fur to find a vein.
It didn't seem right leaving her at the vet, so we brought her home and buried her in the back yard, close to the house.Perhaps this summer I'll plant a little tree there.
I've heard people say "well, it's just a cat". How do I explain to them that a little animal who shares your home for 15 years is more than just a cat? How do I express the love our family has for this creature who has taught us to love and care unconditionally? She never failed to come when called and always purred in our presence, even if we weren't petting her. She just liked being around us.
I don't think Heavenly Father would allow us to form these loving connections with animals if we weren't going to resume those relationships later on. So, for now, we say a temporary goodbye to our little Shirley and thank her for a kitty's lifetime of love, fun, and sweetness.